I feel like I've been hit by a bus!
Seriously!
Hubby and kids are taking great care of me. However, they all want me locked safely away in my room so they don't get sick.
I snuck out though.
I'm feeling better than yesterday. I was even lightheaded yesterday. But some nyquil last night and some robitussin today and I'm leaning towards feeling human again...barely...but I'm on my way.
I'm going back to bed.
Sniff
Cough
Sniff
*sigh*
Night night
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
Ripping my heart out...
Oh geez, the teenage years are going to kill me I'm sure of it. It's not that Chelsea is a difficult child. On the contrary, she's a total sweetheart (most of the time), but because of that I guess, she gets walked on a lot. I hate that for her. I feel her pain. It just breaks my heart to see it happen to her.
See, she's been friends with the same group of girls for a long time now, since elementary school. Last year one girl in particular started to ignore her. This really hurt her because it was her best friend. She was hurt but she didn't say anything. Over the summer that girl started to act like everything was great again. She was hanging out with Chels and calling and texting her. Well, school started and suddenly Chelsea isn't cool enough or pretty enough or something enough and she's started her crap all over again. Poor Chels. She doesn't know what to do about this.
Mark and I are really proud of Chelsea in that she doesn't follow the crowd. She does her own thing. We've always told her that cattle follow the herd, not people. She's free to make decisions on her own. She doesn't need her friends' approval to wear a certain shirt or look a certain way. So, she's always a little left of center because in her words, "I'm cool like that." The girl that's sort of snubbing her now doesn't do anything out of the ordinary because she's afraid to stand out from the crowd. I think she'd march right off a cliff if the rest of the group did. Sad really.
So, Chelsea was crying today because she feels like all her friends hate her suddenly. We talked a lot about if they were truly her friends then they'd be her friends no matter what color her hair was or how funky her outfit. We talked about being who she is because she likes who she is. I told her, "You be who you are because you like who you are! Love you and others will love you too!" But that's hard to live by when others are snubbing you. Ya know?
So, anyway, it hurts for my daughter to hurt. I hate it. A lot. And right now I want to march right down to that little divas house and tell her that one day she's going to look around and the people she thinks are her friends are as superficial as she is. And that one day she'll look around and wonder where all her true friends are and realize that she doesn't have any, because she didn't know how to be one.
And that's the end of my rant.
See, she's been friends with the same group of girls for a long time now, since elementary school. Last year one girl in particular started to ignore her. This really hurt her because it was her best friend. She was hurt but she didn't say anything. Over the summer that girl started to act like everything was great again. She was hanging out with Chels and calling and texting her. Well, school started and suddenly Chelsea isn't cool enough or pretty enough or something enough and she's started her crap all over again. Poor Chels. She doesn't know what to do about this.
Mark and I are really proud of Chelsea in that she doesn't follow the crowd. She does her own thing. We've always told her that cattle follow the herd, not people. She's free to make decisions on her own. She doesn't need her friends' approval to wear a certain shirt or look a certain way. So, she's always a little left of center because in her words, "I'm cool like that." The girl that's sort of snubbing her now doesn't do anything out of the ordinary because she's afraid to stand out from the crowd. I think she'd march right off a cliff if the rest of the group did. Sad really.
So, Chelsea was crying today because she feels like all her friends hate her suddenly. We talked a lot about if they were truly her friends then they'd be her friends no matter what color her hair was or how funky her outfit. We talked about being who she is because she likes who she is. I told her, "You be who you are because you like who you are! Love you and others will love you too!" But that's hard to live by when others are snubbing you. Ya know?
So, anyway, it hurts for my daughter to hurt. I hate it. A lot. And right now I want to march right down to that little divas house and tell her that one day she's going to look around and the people she thinks are her friends are as superficial as she is. And that one day she'll look around and wonder where all her true friends are and realize that she doesn't have any, because she didn't know how to be one.
And that's the end of my rant.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
I'm a bad blogger....(extremely random post)
See, this is how I am. As soon as life gets a little busy, I neglect my blog. I always do it. I've got a journal elsewhere and I neglect that too. I did it when I was younger with my written journals. At times when life is busiest, when I should be journaling what's going on and how I'm feeling about it, I ignore it. I'm a bad blogger. *sigh* So, what's a person to do? Well, I just don't know. I suppose I should make some resolution to be a better blogger and come up with a set time to blog each night...but that won't happen. I've done it before. I'm too disorganized in my own mind to follow it.
So, that aside, what's going on? A lot and nothing all at the same time. The girls have started dance again so of course I'm at the Rec Center every day for some length of time. Chelsea is taking ballet, pointe, tap and jazz as well as being a student choreographer and a dance demonstrator. That's keeping her way busy. Myrena is taking ballet, tap and jazz and also playing field hockey right now. She's loving both. I always thought she'd be a sporty kid. She's always on the move doing something and it very rarely involves sitting inside. At the same time she always has to have someone to play "with". She is not a kid that entertains herself well. As soon as she's up, she's looking for someone to play with.
Chelsea is enjoying high school for the most part. She's discovering things about some of her friends that are distressing to her. Last night she discovered that all the people she tried to talk to on the phone were at a party. A party she didn't know about so obviously had not been included. She was a bit bummed about that but we went out to eat and had a fun time laughing at all the people that were staring at her. And she didn't even look strange last night...not really. I mean, her hair is pink and black, but she was wearing a black tshirt that looked like it had a string of pearls on it. Not way out there. She had on skinny jeans and pink converse...and a white belt around her hips. I didn't think that was so out there. But there was a man and woman of about mid thirties that just kept staring at her, blatantly staring at her. They were way preppy though so maybe that was it. Then there were two "surfer" looking girls that kept looking at her, not in a mean way, they just kept looking over at her. Chelsea is such a goof. When she noticed them looking at her she started "fluffing" her hair like some movie star. Goober! We had a giggle about that.
Aaron has not been doing much. He's not motivated to do anything so I think I'm going to have to motivate him myself. He's going to either go to school, or get a job. He cannot sit around my house for the rest of his life playing video games. It's not going to happen. So, I'm going to have to force the issue of driving and getting a job. He's not going to like me for it, but that's the way it's going to be.
I'm doing okay. I still am not happy with my schedule at work, and I'm watching for a better opening. I'm just so worried that people will be upset with me for leaving. I mean, I like the teachers I work with. (Oh, and Leish, OMG! I have to email you about something. ) I like the kids and I don't want the boss mad at me. But I hate when I'm doing right now. It's so ridiculous. Have you ever heard the phrase "if it isn't broken, don't fix it" well that applies here. We finally made AYP and now the whole of what was working, is moved all around. I could go on and on about this one but I won't. It aggravates me to no end.
Mark is working and traveling a lot so I don't see much of him. I'm feeling a little like a single mom without the worry of the bills and all that. I wish I had one day with no one around so I could totally clean my house and get it looking nice again. There is clutter everywhere and that's a drag.
Oh, this really bites. My camera is in the repair shop. I just got it in April. When I got it I noticed that it wasn't really centering the pictures like it should. I had to compensate a lot to get the picture where I wanted it. It looked like it was in the middle through the viewfinder, but not on the picture after you took it. Then when I took it to Ritz camera the guy there (Tony the butthead) tried to make me look like a fool saying that it seemed to be taking pictures just fine. I explained what was happening and he took a few shots, deleted a few, then took a few more and said, "No, it's taking pictures just fine see." then handed me the camera to look over his pics. Well, yeah, he already deleted the ones that were messed up then he took some more allowing for the difference. I knew what he'd done. I was getting angry with him and told him that I knew what the camera was doing and it had done it since I got it but that I was unfamiliar with dslr cameras so I thought maybe it was a quirk. After talking with others I realized that it shouldn't be that hard to take a picture with a camera like that and took it in to be replaced. He kept insisting that there was nothing wrong with the camera. A girl that was also working there heard him talking to me and came to look at the camera. She took some pictures and noticed it right away. Then Mr. Anal Bin Loudmouth decided to send the camera in for repair. I thought it shoudl be replaced since it had been doing it since the day I got it, but he insisted that it needed to go to repair shop. I had better not get it back with more issues than it had. I bought the extended warranty, thankfully. So, no taking pictures right now. *sigh* That's really hard because I take pictures of everything.
Okay, I need to go and pick my watch up at Sears (also had to be sent for repair). I missed that terribly since there were no clocks in the rooms at school for a while. That drove me nutso. ha ha Short trip, I'm half there already.
Okay, enough whining. I'm going to post some pics with this I guess. I'll see what I have.
Mark getting ready to blow out the candles on his 50th birthday cake. NOw, see, I'm holding the cake right? And he's going to be blowing toward me right? Well, right about this time I realized what a bad idea this was. The candles were melting and there were little puddles of wax all on the tops of them....and he blew on them. You can I'm sure guess what happened from there. Yup! I wore the wax! All over me from forehead to chest. Nice.
My sister and me at the Air Force Museum in Dayton, Ohio. We just thought the Icarus statue was way cool, and we were maybe trying to see what he had tucked up under that big feather in the front. Heh!
This cracks me up. All the girls doing the "rock n roll" sign with my stepdad. Too funny. He's a pretty quiet guy and so to get him to do this was quite an achievement. We tried to get him to do the peace thing but he wouldn't.
The most awesome grandma in the world. See that computer behind us? It's hers. She's a plugged in granny for sure.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
My timecard says K5 Assistant but....
...I don't feel like one. I'm so frustrated I could just scream.
My favorite part of being a k5 assistant is the interaction with the kids. Kid writing, math centers, science, fun stuff at holidays. Gone, all gone. My schedule sucks and I really hate it. I'm not a kindergarten assistant because I'm never in one classroom more than 30 minutes at any one time. I only see each teacher for one hour daily. That's it. That's all they see the assistants.
Okay, here's my schedule.
8:30 - 8:45 Door Duty
8:45 - 9:00 Assigned classroom (what I'm goingto accomplish in 15 mintues before announcements I have no idea)
9:00 - 9:30 Mrs. P's class for centers
9:35 - 10:05 Mrs. S's class for centers
10:05 - 10:35 Mrs. W's class for centers
10:35 - 10:50 Break (what the??? Break???)
10:50 - 11:20 K5 Recess
11:20 - 11:40 k5 Lunch
11:45 - 12:10 3rd Grade Recess (did I mention they hired three new playground people?)
12:10 - 12:20 Assigned classroom (yeah, 10 minutes)
12:20 - 12:50 Lunch
12:50 - 1:00 Assigned classroom (uh huh, you read it right, another ten minutes)
1:00 - 1:30 Afternoon Intervention Time (not to be used for kidwriting! What? ) Mrs. S's class
1:30 - 2:00 Afternoon Intervention Time (again, no kid writing) Mrs. W's class
2:00 - 2:30 Afternoon Intervention Time (*sigh* I love kid writing) Mrs. P's class
2:30 - 2:45 Assigned Classroom (not enough time for kid writing)
2:45 - 3:00 Break (what the hell's the point???)
3:00 - 3:15 Assigned classroom (Oh goody, just in time to say goodbye to them)
3:15 - 3:30 Dismiss the kids and clean up the classroom
I hate it.
It sucks.
I'm not a recess aide. I'm a kindergarten aide. Say it with me. K-I-N-D-E-R-G-A-R-T-E-N!!!!
I'm in a shitty mood now.
Even worse for the teachers. Let's add it up. If a teacher has an assistant for the day (one day a week they're without since there are three teachers and two assistants) then they have an assistant for two hours and ten minutes daily. One hour of that time is devoted to intervention centers. The other hour and ten minutes is broken into 10 and 15 minute chunks.
There's isn't support for kid writing (which needs all the support you can get especially at the beginning of the year). There isn't support for those activities that need extra hands. There isn't support for anything. It sucks for them too! I've seen Mrs. P for barely enough time to say hello. I'm in her room tomorrow and won't even see her then either. This really sucks. I love the people I work with, and the kids, but I feel like I'm never doing anything with them.
Did I mention this sucks?
Did I mention I'm in a shitty mood about it?
Did I mention I hate it?
Okay then, 'nuff said. (hmmppphhhh)
My favorite part of being a k5 assistant is the interaction with the kids. Kid writing, math centers, science, fun stuff at holidays. Gone, all gone. My schedule sucks and I really hate it. I'm not a kindergarten assistant because I'm never in one classroom more than 30 minutes at any one time. I only see each teacher for one hour daily. That's it. That's all they see the assistants.
Okay, here's my schedule.
8:30 - 8:45 Door Duty
8:45 - 9:00 Assigned classroom (what I'm goingto accomplish in 15 mintues before announcements I have no idea)
9:00 - 9:30 Mrs. P's class for centers
9:35 - 10:05 Mrs. S's class for centers
10:05 - 10:35 Mrs. W's class for centers
10:35 - 10:50 Break (what the??? Break???)
10:50 - 11:20 K5 Recess
11:20 - 11:40 k5 Lunch
11:45 - 12:10 3rd Grade Recess (did I mention they hired three new playground people?)
12:10 - 12:20 Assigned classroom (yeah, 10 minutes)
12:20 - 12:50 Lunch
12:50 - 1:00 Assigned classroom (uh huh, you read it right, another ten minutes)
1:00 - 1:30 Afternoon Intervention Time (not to be used for kidwriting! What? ) Mrs. S's class
1:30 - 2:00 Afternoon Intervention Time (again, no kid writing) Mrs. W's class
2:00 - 2:30 Afternoon Intervention Time (*sigh* I love kid writing) Mrs. P's class
2:30 - 2:45 Assigned Classroom (not enough time for kid writing)
2:45 - 3:00 Break (what the hell's the point???)
3:00 - 3:15 Assigned classroom (Oh goody, just in time to say goodbye to them)
3:15 - 3:30 Dismiss the kids and clean up the classroom
I hate it.
It sucks.
I'm not a recess aide. I'm a kindergarten aide. Say it with me. K-I-N-D-E-R-G-A-R-T-E-N!!!!
I'm in a shitty mood now.
Even worse for the teachers. Let's add it up. If a teacher has an assistant for the day (one day a week they're without since there are three teachers and two assistants) then they have an assistant for two hours and ten minutes daily. One hour of that time is devoted to intervention centers. The other hour and ten minutes is broken into 10 and 15 minute chunks.
There's isn't support for kid writing (which needs all the support you can get especially at the beginning of the year). There isn't support for those activities that need extra hands. There isn't support for anything. It sucks for them too! I've seen Mrs. P for barely enough time to say hello. I'm in her room tomorrow and won't even see her then either. This really sucks. I love the people I work with, and the kids, but I feel like I'm never doing anything with them.
Did I mention this sucks?
Did I mention I'm in a shitty mood about it?
Did I mention I hate it?
Okay then, 'nuff said. (hmmppphhhh)
School has started!
Well, yesterday was the first official day of school and it went pretty well (excpet that we were missing my most favorite teacher....*sigh*). I was in Mrs. W's classroom yesterday but really, with my schedule, I'm not really in anyone's classroom for more than a half an hour ever. It's so weird. Out of the entire day, I spend 3 hours in the classroom assisting teachers. The rest of the time I'm at lunch with the kids, at recess with them (or 3rd grade *snarl*) or taking my built in 15 minute breaks. That's a new strange thing to get used to. We never had built in breaks before. They're nice, don't misunderstand, but it's just odd. We used to just grab a potty break or a snack break when the kids went to specials. But now they go to specials while we are at recess with the bigger kids. There is absolutely no time for the extra work that we used to get accomplished. There is no extra time in there for laminating or putting things together, or cutting things out. I'm complaining, I should stop that now.
Chelsea and Myrena both started yesterday as well. Chelsea likes her teachers all a lot. Myrena of course loves her teacher because she has the same teacher as last year. Yesterday Myrena was wearing the goofiest socks. She's so silly and of course she's going to start the year by letting everyone know how silly she is. Chelsea went to school with pink and black hair. But that's not anything unusual and the kids that went to middle school with her are, I'm sure, used to her by now, however, the kids that she doesn't know were a bit surprised by her look I think. She said when she walked into Science class there were lots of "OH!"s going on. My kids are definitely individual eggs for sure (Chelsea happens to look like an Easter egg!).
I know it's been a long time since I last posted. The summer got really busy on me and before I knew it, school was starting and I still hadn't posted anything from our summer adventures. I'm going to post some photos and do it that way very soon. In the meantime, here are the girls on the first day of school (yeah, I'm a dorky mom and make my kids pose on the first day!).
Chelsea and Myrena both started yesterday as well. Chelsea likes her teachers all a lot. Myrena of course loves her teacher because she has the same teacher as last year. Yesterday Myrena was wearing the goofiest socks. She's so silly and of course she's going to start the year by letting everyone know how silly she is. Chelsea went to school with pink and black hair. But that's not anything unusual and the kids that went to middle school with her are, I'm sure, used to her by now, however, the kids that she doesn't know were a bit surprised by her look I think. She said when she walked into Science class there were lots of "OH!"s going on. My kids are definitely individual eggs for sure (Chelsea happens to look like an Easter egg!).
I know it's been a long time since I last posted. The summer got really busy on me and before I knew it, school was starting and I still hadn't posted anything from our summer adventures. I'm going to post some photos and do it that way very soon. In the meantime, here are the girls on the first day of school (yeah, I'm a dorky mom and make my kids pose on the first day!).
Oh shoot! You can't see Myrena's crazy socks. They had little headphones and music notes all over them. *grin*
Here's a better on of Chelsea's hair.
Wow, her face looks really white there. Oh well, it's the picture I have for now. ha ha. She's a nut! Her ballet teacher commented on it. She doesn't like it. Chelsea was sure she wouldn't.
I need to go for now. Time for school.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
New Pointe Shoes
Chelsea got her pointe shoes today. She is so tickled. She can't wait to get on them. She's so excited. We went down for the dance teacher to show her how to sew her ribbons on today. She's got one shoe done and we'll go tomorrow to do the other one. She has to check to be sure she's done it right before she does the other one. She was beaming while she was being fitted. And usually this takes a really long time to get them fitted. We lucked out today. The first pair that she put on not only fit, but felt good and didn't pinch or bind anywhere. The lady at the store said that never happens.
She's such a contradiciton. Here are the pictures she took last night...
She's such a contradiciton. Here are the pictures she took last night...
And then here she is today...getting her new pointe shoes. She was so excited about her funky new outfit and pink converse that she got yesterday and then today she's excited about her very girly pink pointe shoes.
She's still a girlie girl even if she does cover it up with pink hair dye and rocker sweatshirts.
Myrena is doing really well. I think she's lost a little weight this summer. I don't weigh her as I don't want her being self conscious at such a young age, but we do talk to her about eating healthy and keeping active. She does a good job of that. She's very active. Sometimes I don't see how she could carry any extra weight at all. She's the farthest thing from lazy. She's always moving, swimming, riding her bike, roller blading, or just playing with her friends. She's almost never sitting still. I hate to think that she's going to struggle her whole life with her weight, but then, it's how God has made her and he makes no mistakes.
She does want to play Lacrosse this year. If we can find her a team to play on we'll make that happen. She wants to dance also. She's so funny, she's worried about whether we can pay for her to do both. We told her not to worry, that she could do both and we'd be just fine. If she can't play lacrosse she wants to play soccer. I'm sure we can find a soccer team for her to play on. The Rec has one I'm sure.
We went camping for Chelsea's birthday. She had a great time. We rented two sites so the girls would have their own site. She invited two friends from school. They were very well behaved and had a lot of fun. We were playing around with some pictures. Here's what we did...
That's Chelsea she's holding...
Giving Allison a kiss
Myrena is going to squish them like bugs.
Chelsea in Ashley's hand. She's hard to see but it's easier when it's bigger. It's very cool. I think if you click on the picture it will make it bigger. I had fun with these and so did the girls.
Soooooooooooooooo, I guess it's time to go to bed. I'm tired and I've got a busy day tomorrow.
Monday, July 28, 2008
Quite Literally crying laughing!!!
Okay, so my daughter has a facebook and I opened one for myself because she begged me to. I watch hers but I have her password, so I didn't really need to have one of my own...but...she asked. So, there was this IQ test thinger on there and I took the test. OMG! I'm laughing so hard I can barely type! This is what it said...
Your score: 150
Top 5% of Population
People that score in this range are genius or near genius.
Roflmaoooooooo!
And, there is no freakin' way! This thing is rigged! roflmao Of course, maybe it isn't. It did say Tom Cruise's IQ was 98. That sounds about right. Heh!
Your score: 150
Top 5% of Population
People that score in this range are genius or near genius.
Roflmaoooooooo!
And, there is no freakin' way! This thing is rigged! roflmao Of course, maybe it isn't. It did say Tom Cruise's IQ was 98. That sounds about right. Heh!
Sunday, July 20, 2008
My website
I've been working on updating the family website. I try to use that to keep in touch with my family. I added a media page today. I need to fix a couple of things on the youtube vids. I had a hard time embedding the videos so I took the easy way out and uploaded them to youtube. *shrug* I'm getting lazy and just didn't want to work through the html any longer.
Watching Big Brother tonight. My favorite guilty pleasure. I know it's trash t.v. but I have to watch it.
So, the doctor put me on medicine again for the swelling but he increased it to twice a day. After a week I have to get some bloodwork done and see if it's improving and maybe see if any levels will tell anything. I don't look for that to provide any answers. But, it's a start. The swelling has improved and my feet and legs are about half the size they were. That's pretty good because they were huge.
We had a busy weekend. On Saturday we cleaned the dungeon. The laundry room you will remember (if you read the picture tag post) was so bad your couldn't even walk through it. So, we pulled Mark's trailer up in front of the house and we emptied the basement and only took back what we could justify. We also got a bunch of clear totes to separate things into and put them onto the shelves. It looks 100% better down there. In fact, it's a little strange because I'm not used to it being that clean. I love it. We scrubbed the floor too! It's a complete turn around.
So, I guess I should take a new photo.
I'm distracted and I think I should write this later. Ha ha.
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Watching Big Brother tonight. My favorite guilty pleasure. I know it's trash t.v. but I have to watch it.
So, the doctor put me on medicine again for the swelling but he increased it to twice a day. After a week I have to get some bloodwork done and see if it's improving and maybe see if any levels will tell anything. I don't look for that to provide any answers. But, it's a start. The swelling has improved and my feet and legs are about half the size they were. That's pretty good because they were huge.
We had a busy weekend. On Saturday we cleaned the dungeon. The laundry room you will remember (if you read the picture tag post) was so bad your couldn't even walk through it. So, we pulled Mark's trailer up in front of the house and we emptied the basement and only took back what we could justify. We also got a bunch of clear totes to separate things into and put them onto the shelves. It looks 100% better down there. In fact, it's a little strange because I'm not used to it being that clean. I love it. We scrubbed the floor too! It's a complete turn around.
So, I guess I should take a new photo.
I'm distracted and I think I should write this later. Ha ha.
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Friday, July 18, 2008
Blow Fish Syndrome
I go to the dr. today to find out why I look like a blowfish. My feet and legs are swelled to unnatural sizes lately and I can't figure it out. The Lasix is not working. Each night when I sleep they recover a bit, but never as much as the increase in swelling from the day before. So, I'm just getting bigger. Today is an all time "huge".
There has to be a reason for all of this. It can't be "cyclic edema" there is just no way. I'm 38 years old and have swelling worse than my 78 year old grandmother. When old ladies look at my legs and gasp, there a problem. You know, there used to seeing it, it happens all the time for my grandma, it's a usual occurrence, but not in a 38 year old.
I had tests and tests and tests done about a year and a half ago when this all first started. No, two and a half years ago. It started in February of '06. Just suddenly, I swelled up one day to a strange size. And then it went down a bit, and then got bigger, and then went down a bit....etc. They tested everything. My heart first; the worry was congestive heart failure. Wasn't that. Next it was my thyroid they checked. Nope. My kidneys? Off to a specialist for more tests. Nope, not that either. Not my liver or my pancreas either. I discovered through all this, that I'm incredibly healthy. Well, except for the really ugly blow fish feet. I just kept moving forward and finally resigned myself that it was just a fluke thing and I'd just live with it. The medicine worked when it flared up and I'd just take that when I needed to.
I went on a diet and started losing weight. I lost 42 pounds in six months. I hit a plateau. But the swelling had gone away. I was so excited. I thougth I'd found out what it had been. It was the weight. Had to be. Yay me! Right?
Wrong! It came back this past February. And it's worse.
So, I'm off to the doctor today to find out why once and for all. I've got my list of "symptoms" (related or not I don't know, but it's a list nonetheless.) and my big huge feet. He's going to have to do better than "cyclic edema". Mark's worried that it's my heart. I don't know. It might be I guess.
I just don't know. But I hope they can find out. I can't wear any of my shoes. And that's not good. LOL
There has to be a reason for all of this. It can't be "cyclic edema" there is just no way. I'm 38 years old and have swelling worse than my 78 year old grandmother. When old ladies look at my legs and gasp, there a problem. You know, there used to seeing it, it happens all the time for my grandma, it's a usual occurrence, but not in a 38 year old.
I had tests and tests and tests done about a year and a half ago when this all first started. No, two and a half years ago. It started in February of '06. Just suddenly, I swelled up one day to a strange size. And then it went down a bit, and then got bigger, and then went down a bit....etc. They tested everything. My heart first; the worry was congestive heart failure. Wasn't that. Next it was my thyroid they checked. Nope. My kidneys? Off to a specialist for more tests. Nope, not that either. Not my liver or my pancreas either. I discovered through all this, that I'm incredibly healthy. Well, except for the really ugly blow fish feet. I just kept moving forward and finally resigned myself that it was just a fluke thing and I'd just live with it. The medicine worked when it flared up and I'd just take that when I needed to.
I went on a diet and started losing weight. I lost 42 pounds in six months. I hit a plateau. But the swelling had gone away. I was so excited. I thougth I'd found out what it had been. It was the weight. Had to be. Yay me! Right?
Wrong! It came back this past February. And it's worse.
So, I'm off to the doctor today to find out why once and for all. I've got my list of "symptoms" (related or not I don't know, but it's a list nonetheless.) and my big huge feet. He's going to have to do better than "cyclic edema". Mark's worried that it's my heart. I don't know. It might be I guess.
I just don't know. But I hope they can find out. I can't wear any of my shoes. And that's not good. LOL
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
I got tagged!
**note, no matter how much formatting and html I add to this thing, it just won't do what I want. It puts spaces where they shouldn't be and won't let me delete them. So it looks like a kindergartner formatted it, and honestly maybe that's who programmed the dang thing for blogger, but this is the best it would let me do. stepping off my pedestal now**
So Aleisha tagged me. Thank God she's the only one that reads this blog! LOL I wasn't allowed to clean anything before I took the pictures. You'll see that I certainly did NOT clean anything before I took the pictures. Argh. I need to go clean my house now.
1. Dream Vacation
That would have to be Australia! I'd love to go there and this is why.
We have to have a curtain on it (not really even a curtain, it's a sheet and a tension rod) because we had to take the door off since the bedroom is so small and our bed is so big. But I love our bed and would never part with it. Notice the garment bags....they're full of dance costumes from recital. I haven't put them away properly yet. I'll deal with that when I need the garment bags for new costumes. LOL!
So Aleisha tagged me. Thank God she's the only one that reads this blog! LOL I wasn't allowed to clean anything before I took the pictures. You'll see that I certainly did NOT clean anything before I took the pictures. Argh. I need to go clean my house now.
1. Dream Vacation
That would have to be Australia! I'd love to go there and this is why.
This is Byron Bay! Gorgeous!
2. Self Portrait
Blargh! I look horrible. LOL And what is up with my mile high forehead? Has it always been that big? Geez. Is there surgery to correct that? I suppose not.
3. What the kids are doing right now...
This is what Aaron is always diong. Well, most of the time. He has time limits and when he isn't doing this, on his off time, he's reading. His desk is a mess. I need to mention that to him. The rest of his room is amazingly clean for a boy though. I mean, seriously, I should have taken a picture of that. His bed is even made. LOL He jumped a mile out of his seat when the camera flashed. He didn't know I was taking a picture and I scared the bejeezers out of him.
Chelsea was watching music videos. I told her about when I was her age MTV had just come on the air and it was all music videos and music news. That's it. She was shocked and said she wished it were like that now. She loves watching videos.
Myrena and Sara are playing Bratz. They have such fun with these dolls and they always clean it all up when they're done. They do a good job down there. Our playroom is in the basement. I wish I had more room to give them to play, but that's what we have. They don't seem to mind much.
4. Closet
Blech! I hate my closet. They are too small and not enough of them. I'll show you my bedroom closet, but I warn you, I keep the curtain closed for a reason.
We have to have a curtain on it (not really even a curtain, it's a sheet and a tension rod) because we had to take the door off since the bedroom is so small and our bed is so big. But I love our bed and would never part with it. Notice the garment bags....they're full of dance costumes from recital. I haven't put them away properly yet. I'll deal with that when I need the garment bags for new costumes. LOL!
5. Favorite Room
(photo coming...I'm upstairs and forgot about this one when I was running around taking pics...)
Hmmm, that would have to be....I don't know. Right now I don't really have a favorite room. I guess my dining room since we just painted it and it looks all nice now. I have to get something on the walls for decoration but I'm just no good at that.
6. Favorite shoes
(I forgot about this one too. I'll get a picture and put it in here...)
Any that fit right now. My feet and legs are swelled to unnatural size and I can't put my feet into anything but my ratty camping shoes. The sneaks with no backs!
7. Laundry room....Leish, you cannot even complain about your laundry room! This one takes the cake I'm sure. It's a crazy mess down there and at the moment, Mark was working on the freezer so it was doubly a mess.
Geez there is crap everywhere! Argh! This weekend coming we are pulling the trailer up out front and emptying most of what is in this dungeon into it to go to the trash heap. It's a horrible mess. I know I should freecycle it but honestly, I just need it gone. I do love my washer and dryer though.
8. Bathroom.
I do like my bathroom. It's small but we just remodeled it and I love the colors we chose and the way everything came out. It's a mess right now. Proof that I didn't clean anything before I took the picture.
It's really tiny...I mean...really!
Okay, the toilet paper is supposed to be under the sink and the rolls we are saving for Kids and Cultures. They're doing a craft at their camp and they need over 200 of them. I don't think we'll be able to provide them all, but we'll do our part to help out! *grin*
I just love our new sink. It's my favorite part of the whole new room. Of course right now it's covered in things that shouldn't be there, but hey, what do you expect with three kids, two of which are teenagers? Do you like the bead board (is it called wainscoting?) it was a pain in the butt to paint but I love the way it turned out. I love the color too. Mark frowned at me when I picked it, but he liked it too when it was on the walls.
9. Sink!
OMG, I can't believe I took this picture. I do the dishes after dinner, and we haven't had dinner yet. Sooooooo, there are still dishes sitting there. Argh! As you can see from my ancient sink, we haven't yet remodeled the kitchen. It's on the list, but it still needs sooooo much work we need to save some money for it first.
9. Refrigerator
Hmmm, what do you say about this. It's a fridge. AT least there isn't anything moldy.
I don't know anyone that blogs so I can't tag anyone, but hey, it was fun! Thanks loads Leish for making me aware of just how dirty my house really is! LOL Love ya! Loads! Really! I swear! No, really! Loads! *grin* *wink*
I love camping!!!
Someone asked me today what my normal day looks like when I'm camping. So, I went about sharing with her my day, and boy did I ever feel lazy, and pampered. My husband babies me way too much. I really love camping and I think I realized why when I told all about my days!
Anyway, we went camping last weekend at Splash Magic in North Umberland. We really love it up there. There is loads for the kids to do. They never stop going. In fact, sometimes Myrena gets so worn out that we have to make her come into the camper and relax for a bit. She'll get so grumpy and cranky but she doesn't want to stop. She might miss something I guess.
When we got there we always get the kids activity passes. They are good for mini golf, bumper boats, paddle boats and bike rentals. There is also a pool there that is just fantastic. And they have constant organized activities. It's one of our favorite places to go. (Leish, you so need to go there!)
I'll add some pictures when I'm not too lazy to resize them all. Blargh!
I've got to work on my website. It's so outdated. I think I'm going to take the whole thing down and redo it. And I might just start today! LOL Why not, I've got nothing better to do until Big Brother comes on at 8:00! My favorite show next to Survivor!
Oh, and I'm reading an excellent book. It's called "A World Without End" and for the life of me I can't remember the author. Shoot. It's the book after "The Pillars Of The Earth". Ken Follet! There, I knew I'd remember it. Both books are really good and out of the norm for me, but I really am enjoying them. It's even too hard to describe what they're about. But they're so interesting. I love reading about how people did things before there were all the handy things we have now to make work so much easier. The books are quite addicting.
I haven't finished my second Market bag yet. I don't like the way the handles are supposed to work so I took them off and I'm trying something different. It probably wont' work and I'll have some more useless bags laying around but whatever. I think I might make something felted for a change. Maybe this pattern, but felted would be good. Yeah! That's what I'll do. Did I already mention that somewhere? Probably. So like me to come up with an old idea and think it's great only to realize I've thought of it before and thought it was great then too.
I'm rambling.
I should go take that website down. Yup! Think I just might do that.
Later!
Anyway, we went camping last weekend at Splash Magic in North Umberland. We really love it up there. There is loads for the kids to do. They never stop going. In fact, sometimes Myrena gets so worn out that we have to make her come into the camper and relax for a bit. She'll get so grumpy and cranky but she doesn't want to stop. She might miss something I guess.
When we got there we always get the kids activity passes. They are good for mini golf, bumper boats, paddle boats and bike rentals. There is also a pool there that is just fantastic. And they have constant organized activities. It's one of our favorite places to go. (Leish, you so need to go there!)
I'll add some pictures when I'm not too lazy to resize them all. Blargh!
I've got to work on my website. It's so outdated. I think I'm going to take the whole thing down and redo it. And I might just start today! LOL Why not, I've got nothing better to do until Big Brother comes on at 8:00! My favorite show next to Survivor!
Oh, and I'm reading an excellent book. It's called "A World Without End" and for the life of me I can't remember the author. Shoot. It's the book after "The Pillars Of The Earth". Ken Follet! There, I knew I'd remember it. Both books are really good and out of the norm for me, but I really am enjoying them. It's even too hard to describe what they're about. But they're so interesting. I love reading about how people did things before there were all the handy things we have now to make work so much easier. The books are quite addicting.
I haven't finished my second Market bag yet. I don't like the way the handles are supposed to work so I took them off and I'm trying something different. It probably wont' work and I'll have some more useless bags laying around but whatever. I think I might make something felted for a change. Maybe this pattern, but felted would be good. Yeah! That's what I'll do. Did I already mention that somewhere? Probably. So like me to come up with an old idea and think it's great only to realize I've thought of it before and thought it was great then too.
I'm rambling.
I should go take that website down. Yup! Think I just might do that.
Later!
Monday, July 7, 2008
Better Late Than Never...
Happy Fourth of July.
Pictures taken at Lititz Springs Park fireworks display and Long's Park fireworks display. Enjoy.
Pictures taken at Lititz Springs Park fireworks display and Long's Park fireworks display. Enjoy.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Myrena's birthday party
She had a blast. It wasn't so bad for me either. I just kept cleaning up the mess and putting out a new activity. I've got some fun pictures. The kids were so silly but not misbehaved at all. It was a good group of girls. It was kind of funny to see that they were all little dancers. Julian doesn't dance anymore, but she used to.
First they swam out back in the pool.
Then we had cake. I guess I should have a put a cute pic of her cake on here, but this one was funnier. LOL
Nice cake Myrena!
First they swam out back in the pool.
Then they came in and wanted to do a craft. I had little tote bags for them to decorate with paints and some other stuff. They had fun with those. Julia wasn't there yet. She had a wedding to go to so she was a little late.
Then we had cake. I guess I should have a put a cute pic of her cake on here, but this one was funnier. LOL
Nice cake Myrena!
They sure had fun with these glow sticks and I had fun taking pictures of them. ha ha ha
Then it was out to the pool with the glow sticks.
Playing Rock Band on the Wii until the wee hours of the morning. Good thing our neighbors weren't home that night.
After all this they played hide and seek in the house, in the dark. They had on glow sticks so it wasn't too hard for them to find one another. They had a blast though adn Mark and I just stayed in the office out of the way. They only came to us to ask permission to do something. Finally at three a.m. I told them that the old people were going to bed and they were restricted to being in the livingroom, diningroom and kitchen area. They put in a movie and settled down...well, some of them settled down. Most were asleep pretty quickly but others were up all night.
Mark and I got up around ten the next morning and they were already up and wanting to get in the pool. So they did and Mark made breakfast.
Yummy! Pancakes and sausage.
All in all I think they had a great time and Myrena loved her party. She felt all grown up having a party that the adults weren't allowed to attend. After all, she is a double digit now! *grin*
Fireworks
I got a new camera recently and got the opportunity to do something fun with it last night. The fireworks in Lititz were really neat and I had some fun with my camera. I did learn that I need a remote control for it. It's had to hold your arm up there pushing that button when the camera is on a tripod to keep it from being shaken. So, after much playing here are my best shots. There are a lot of them and I finally remembered to resize them before uploading. Doh!
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Mark
Mark just left to go to the doctor and get the results of his liver biopsy that he had a few weeks ago. I hope everything is okay. He's had an enlarged liver for a while now and his enzyme levels keep coming back high when he gets bloodwork. I'm praying that whatever is causing it is just something that can be corrected. Maybe with some medication or whatever. I know he's worried. He says he isn't. He says that if it had been anything serious they would have called him and asked him to come in sooner. He has a point. I guess. But, he just left and he's really tense. He asked me if I wanted to go with him. I told him I had to pick up Myrena at 4:00. I hope he doesn't think I'm just being callous. But honestly, he asks me to go to his doctor appointments with him all the time. I don't know why, I guess maybe he's getting older and thinking about his mortality a bit. He's going to be 50 this July. Maybe he's starting to worry about things a bit.
I'm praying that all is okay with him.
I'm praying that all is okay with him.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
The DVDs are way cool!
I'm all done with the inserts, the discs and the labels. I'm pretty pleased with them. It's not a professional job, but I think they're pretty good having come from my ancient Sony Vaio. ha ha
This picture freaked us all out a little. I was using the night portrait setting on my camera, and Sara moved when I took the picture and this is the weird shot we got. How bizaare (bizarre?) is that.
We've got way more camping trips coming up. It's going to be a busy summer with all this going on. I love it though. I'm off to call about the Summer Workshops at the Dutch Apple Dinner Theater for Chelsea. That should be a good time for her.
The front cover. The tap shoe picture was taken at dress rehearsal and the girl tieing her shoes was a dress rehearsal also. The ballet feet were from a program I have for making things like this.
All the little pictures I took at dress rehearsals and they worked perfectly on the back. I didn't put a picture of the dance teacher because she's really picky about that kind of stuff.
I don't know if you can see it or not, but the discs are etched with a lightscribe drive and on the first disc is a picture of the tap shoes that I took, and the second disc has pointe shoes on it. They turned out really cool.
Dang, I forgot to take a picture of my market bag so far. I'm such a knitting addict. It's okay though, it keeps me from eating.
We went camping this past weekend. The first trip of the year. We had a great time. It could have been longer and I would not have complained. The weather was perfect and we had a great spot near the pool and playground. I took pictures....of course...was there ever a doubt that I'd take pictures. Chelsea's friend Dejuanah went with us and so did Myrena's friend Sara. You can see Sara in the red sweatshirt, and Dejuanah's legs under her. We somehow lost two chairs since last year. I'm not sure where they went, but they weren't in the camper. Of course I'm not in the picture, because I'm taking the picture. Good strategy I think. I'm sure the kids have pictures of me on their cameras. They always take pictures of everything. I've taught them well.
This picture freaked us all out a little. I was using the night portrait setting on my camera, and Sara moved when I took the picture and this is the weird shot we got. How bizaare (bizarre?) is that.
We've got way more camping trips coming up. It's going to be a busy summer with all this going on. I love it though. I'm off to call about the Summer Workshops at the Dutch Apple Dinner Theater for Chelsea. That should be a good time for her.
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